Musings

Is it possible to be a decent human being and be a Bush supporter? Given the track record - the deceit, the manipulation, the arrogance and veniality of these people - well, I've got my doubts. I think I have a better chance surviving chemo and hep c than I do surviving this administration. I guess the point is that life goes on - whatever the challenges. But sometimes you can push it too hard. Selective amnesia is very helpful in these times. So are any and all distractions - especially entertaining ones. The NCAA Sweet Sixteen Tournament begins play today. I've got a couple of favorites - Duke and the UW Huskies. Then there's always the cinderella team that comes out of nowhere to surprise everyone - maybe Villanova (my homeboy team). The games tend to be close and exciting and they play with every bit of energy and speed they can muster - leaving it all on the court. (Think the exact opposite of the Trailblazers.) Anyway, that's a lot of distraction going for the next few days. It does weird me out to get so plugged into the tube. I sometimes feel like it's sucking out my brain cells, which it probably is. But this is not the time or year to stand on principle. I'd be better served perhaps to read a good book or to engage in a lively discussion about the Arctic Wilderness - but what's the point. My eyes hurt when I read and my head hurts when I talk about politics. I can't even stand The West Wing anymore. It seems divorced from reality - politicians with a conscience. Ridiculous! And liberal democrats are in power? Give me a break. Star Wars seems more believable. Do I sound bitter? I'll try to stop. It takes too much energy. One is better off laughing. I'm just trying to maintain my energy and my sanity, trying to stay strong enough that when all this political and personal dis-ease is done with, when all this seems like a sad dream, I can go on.